That's the advice left here by sin, when I determined that I had completely exhausted my capacity to keep writing here as I have for nearly 7 years. It feels to me like that is a bit of wise guidance -- just let things be and go on to write something different...
Maybe I just need to start from the simplest of facts about NOW and go from there.
We keep assuring one another that we still have each other; that we are still together. That is true.
He says that he doesn't feel dominant anymore, so there will be no more of our former Master/slave dynamic.
I guess that necessitates a shift in how people are labeled as I write here -- time for me to resume being Sue.
Probably, there will be very little, going forward for me to say about the practice of BDSM between us. I don't expect that to play much of a role in our lives together. Still, I may find things, in general, to say about BDSM and the community. I hope I can do that without it feeling dishonest.
I'm not likely to write much anymore about polyamory. I've discovered, through all of this that I have little interest in submerging myself in a plethora of "relationships." It isn't for me. I understand the concept. I am just not interested. And, yes, I do "get" the irony of my situation in light of that reality.
I still teach. I still am the "mom" to two adults who were once my children. I still read widely and follow politics. I still dream dreams and think thoughts. What rolls across the screen here in the future is not likely to be sexy and I doubt there'll be anymore butt pictures, but I need the place for the words to live.