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My dreams are chaotic and full of disturbing imagery. I wander lost and helpless through a landscape that I don't recognize, but which still seems vaguely familiar.
Not to worry, however. It is fine, really. This mental fussing is just part of getting into the pattern and rhythm of the school room. I am, actually, entirely ready and relatively certain that my preparations throughout this summer will set the stage for success for me and for my students. I am physically healthier than I have been for a couple of years -- no major aches and pains, and feeling hopeful that I may even have found a set of things that can help to minimize my migraine issues, too. I look at my face in the mirror, and I can see my eyes sparkle back at me. It has been a long while since the last time that sparkle was part of my daily look. It has been a good summer, interestingly. Even as we've worked hard to come through His knee surgery and the requisite rehabilitation, we've enjoyed the long, slow, lazy days and nights. We've reveled in hours to spend together. We've laughed and loved and learned, once again, how to be gentle with each other. It has been a summer full of small things, and that seems like a very big thing.
I remember trudging back to school last August, uncertain that I had the personal resources or reserves to make it through the year. I was, then, exhausted, beaten, and sad. This beginning feels completely different -- vibrant with power and hopefulness. I have been conscious about not looking backward; deliberate about focusing on what is. Still, the contrast between now and then is amazing. All the various, small steps toward health and healing have paid off. There are now so many moments of joy and love and simple happy sweetness and peace. I cannot point to a specific moment when life changed and showed up feeling good again. I only know it has, and I am glad and grateful.
So, I am headed off into a brand new year, and I am nervous but also excited. Nervousness will evaporate, I am sure, in the rush and spill of happy greetings and new adventures that lie ahead.