Car Talk is a radio talk show broadcast weekly on NPR stations throughout the United States and elsewhere. Its subjects are automobiles and repair, and it often takes humorous turns. The hosts of Car Talk are brothers Tom and Ray Magliozzi, known on the air as Click and Clack, the Tappet Brothers.
I have never been a fan of the radio show, "Car Talk." I find it jarring and jangling. The hyena laughter annoys the crap out of me, and I tend to feel like the callers are hand picked for their willingness to appear stupid/foolish on the air. It is, to my way of thinking, a clear sign that the force that drives the universe is perverse and mean-spirited, that I keep ending up in relationships with people who just love the show -- who would rather do almost anything except miss a "Car Talk" broadcast. Mostly, I just grin and bear it. One of those "submission" things they don't tell you about when they are trying to convince you that it is all hot and sexy all the time.
So, anyway... Did I mention that we "played" on Saturday morning? It is a time of renewal and "reinvestment" for the two of us. We are spanking more and enjoying it more -- and that means that I am waking up to the sexual part of myself and the sexual part of who we are together. Spanking, when it is good for me, is multi-layered. It means a lot of different things at different times. Spanking hurts. That is a constant. Always, there is the battle to get through it, into it, on top of it. Spanking is connective for me. The pain and the patterns and the rhythms, help me to feel Him and know Him more deeply and more intensely than otherwise. I don't really understand it, I only know it is the reality. And then, there is sex. All of that pain, all of the energy, and the connection... can all serve to turn me on, make me horny. Not always. I am forever unpredictable and my responses are never automatic. Especially since the hysterectomy, that experience of sexual excitement and arousal is elusive, fleeting, and fragile. When I am "horny," I want. I really want. And that was the story yesterday morning after my spanking, after He and I had made love, after His orgasm... I was ready to try for one of my own; to lie curled up in His arms and vibrate myself off into my own release.
And that was when, He asked me to hand Him the radio remote so that He could turn on... "Car Talk."