We have been pretty busy in Clan-Land. This is the beginning of our 4th week of intensive rehab. All 3 of us have completed 3 weeks of classes and meetings. We are all tired. We are all frustrated with the continued emphasis of "God" in everything, no matter how often they add "as you understand Him". We were actually told, this past Thursday, that AA really IS a non-denominational group, but if we wanted to not say The Lord's Prayer at the end of each meeting, there was a meeting at a Jewish Synagogue that doesn't say it. NO SHIT! Sue and I talked about this on the way home, and decided it would be just "nice" if before breaking out into a huge circle of hand-holding people, there was a mention that if you wanted to join the circle you are welcome, and if you wished to leave, that is perfectly acceptable too. It would take a few seconds of time, and be much more considerate of the people who do not practice Christian religions.
Sue and I both have colds again. I am thinking it is stress and poor sleep causing us to become sicker this winter than usual. Tom is mostly doing well. He has some rough days, but wades through it as best he can with as much support as he can stand. I am working a minimum of 48 hours a week, as the senior insurance claim business has increased 35% this year. Yeah Boomers! Sue is doing teacher hours, which is mostly 6 days a week, minimum, and Tom is doing his work as required, doing alot of the household running, and assisting a friend in need.
One of the books that is strongly recommended to read is "The Language of Letting Go" by Melody Beattie. I have been slogging thru' at a snails-pace but this meditation struck a cord with me.
Today, I will be gentle with myself, understanding that sometimes to reach the middle ground of balance, I need to explore the peaks and valleys. Sometimes, the only way I can extricate myself from a valley is to jump high enough to land on a peak, and then slowly ease myself down.
Have a good week everyone. Be gentle with Yourselves.