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2/08/2014

I Live in Spite of This...

It is Saturday morning.  I look forward to the weekends all through my work week.  But, often, when the reality is upon me, I find my fantasizing is ill-founded.

This morning upon awakening, Tom first noted that his shoulder was stiff, then that he needed to go pee.  I giggled and said, that is the joy of aging:  the first moments of consciousness:  I ache, I need to pee...  To which he added, "and then you think 'Damn, I'm alive for another day.'"

And so it continues.  This is his reality.  Not mine.

I choose to remember Richard Dawkins' admonishment ...

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  1. I think what he said is sad. I'm not sure I could live with that. I'm at that age too where those are my first thoughts. Today I woke up and thought "It's sunny and I have to pee and the muscles in my ass hurt, I wonder why, and I have tons of things to do today and and and..." And I think I'm pretty happy to be alive pretty much every day.

    I think your quote is kind of sad too - I believe you are trying to explore possibility here, but still kind of sad with all the unfilled possibilities?

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    1. Sin -- He is sad. I have become convinced, finally, that there is not one thing that I can do to change that.

      As for the Dawkins quote being sad, I don't see it that way. I've spent a lifetime looking for other people to make me happy. Now, at the age I am, I am done looking. I will enjoy the days I have. I will teach with all my heart. It is my art and my joy. I will live with the people I love and hope for the best for them, but I will no longer wait for them to "make me happy." This is my ordinary life, and that is an extraordinary thing.

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    2. That's different, knowing that you cannot wait for other people to make you happy. And yes, I agree that our lives can be extraordinary.

      -sin

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  2. weirdgirl5:41 AM

    living life with someone who is depressed can be so very very difficult - you have my empathy.
    you seem pragmatic about your reality, and that only you can make you happy... a truth, no doubt, but one that is certainly bittersweet to acknowledge.

    I love the last sentence of your reply to Sin - the ordinary is indeed extraordinary, and to be able to see that is such a rare gift it seems.

    i wish we could sit and chat over a cup of tea.
    I would like that.

    Kindest regards

    weirdgirl

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    1. I would like that, too :-)

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