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Where the Sidewalk (and Everything Else) Ends...

Where the Sidewalk Ends
There is a place where the sidewalk ends
And before the street begins,
And there the grass grows soft and white,
And there the sun burns crimson bright,
And there the moon-bird rests from his flight
To cool in the peppermint wind.
Let us leave this place where the smoke blows black
And the dark street winds and bends.
Past the pits where the asphalt flowers grow
We shall walk with a walk that is measured and slow,
And watch where the chalk-white arrows go
To the place where the sidewalk ends.
Yes we'll walk with a walk that is measured and slow,
And we'll go where the chalk-white arrows go,
For the children, they mark, and the children, they know
The place where the sidewalk ends.
Shel Silverstein

Over the last couple of months, I've written here about the use of Captcha, and the opening day of the baseball season, and my heart pains, and the end of school, and my topsy turvy garden planters.  I've also written a series of four posts based on a comment left by the wife of my ex-husband.  Clearly, there is not very much to say here that is of any import, or that has any relationship to BDSM.  The truth is we are OK.  We live and really things are pretty fine.  We sometimes spank, and that is OK too.  There just isn't anything at all like the heat and fire that once powered this place.  We are old and tired and life is sort of quiet.

So.  Time to call it for what it so obviously is.  The End.  Don't worry about us.  We're just us, and this is where the sidewalk ends.



  1. I am sorry you have come to this conclusion swan - i have been reading you for......... forever!!!

    My first reaction was "but how will i know what's going on in your life?" and then I remembered what another blogger friend said when he took his blog down ... "there is always email"

    so dear friend you may shut down the blog - but i will keep in touch via email :) In a couple of weeks I will have so much more time on my hands - time spent communicating with dear friends (and much more)

  2. Wow. Seems like there should be a send-off party or something.
    I will miss you.

  3. I wish you all well...and that you continue to be living you life and being 'us'..happily.
    hugs abby

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  5. Boo - this doesn't make me like Shel Silverstein any better you know.

    I'll miss you. I hope you'll still be around a bit.


    And feel free to change your mind.

  6. Impish112:08 AM

    My life has become something different leaving me unable to check here as often, But I'm sorry to see you go. Please know that I am grateful; I learned so much here.

  7. Anonymous12:47 AM

    I'm one of those people who submitted unwelcome comments to your blog. I regret doing that, and I promised to stay away, at least from comment, forever forward. And until today, i kept that promise. But now i am once again compelled to say something, however little it may mean, so i am breaking that promise. Sue/swan...your words are important and have great value to me. It doesn't matter that they are no longer pointed towards matters of a kinky inclination. I treasure your written words, no matter the topic. I learn from you. That's why i still come here every single day to see what else you have on your mind that you want to share with the world. I like to think that part of my growth comes from people like you, and yes, i really am growing. a work in progress. thanks for all that you have submitted to the world at large via this vast internet. I wish you all well and i hope that you find a reason to just keep on keeping on in blogland.

    And i'm sorry for ever being a negative component to your life. i was always your champion (in my mind). It just took me a while to learn to shut the fuck up. ugh.

    Best wishes,


  8. weirdgirl1:31 AM

    I truly hope that this isn't the end of your blog.
    If it is, then of course I wish you all every happiness into the future, but i hope that you do still write, dear Sue. Somewhere.

    Thank you for allowing me to come here and read your words through the highs and the lows and back again. It's been an honour and a privilege.

    I, too, have flown close to the wind with some of my comments, but always from a place of concern and never intentionally with any disrespect. The three of you have always been gracious in return.

    Wishing you all love and happiness, and sending you thanks


  9. tarotmaven@aol.com1:49 AM

    i have learned so much from reading your blog, which i've also read from the very, very start of it. you are such a talented writer and truly the topic has never made a difference - what kept me coming back was your voice and your honesty - you tackled so many difficult topics with a degree of candor that i've never seen maintained consistently anywhere else on the internet.

    but most of all - despite my being a very, very occasional poster, i have thought so much about the three of you and when you went through particularly rough times, i worried about all of you in the way i think about precious friends. similarly, when things went well for you, i would be delighted.

    i wish you the very best and for sure, you will be missed.


  10. Honestly, dunno know what ro say, but totally understand...

    Your voice will be missed. Love to all!


  11. Ordalie4:19 PM

    Coming here today as usual I find this last post. I feel like losing a friend, I loved so much reading you whatever topic you chose to speak about.
    You are slamming the door you had opened so invitingly, leaving us out in the cold. I keep wondering why, maybe it's the end of the schoolyear taking its toll. I can only hope with all my heart you'll reconsider your decision but if you don't I can only thank you for all the times you have nurtured my thoughts.
    I will awfully miss you.

  12. Sad.. so very sad swan. Life unfolds and evolves, and things change. I hope that you are not letting 'her' win by folding up. Please don't delete the blog.. and please, as others have said, consider only an occasional post, or even the dreaded taking it private so that she can't follow you there. Even with our own nasty gram, I didn't ever consider closing down our blog. We might not write as frequently as before we relocated together, it still means a lot to us. And so does your blog.

    @Ordalie... I would say she's more pulling up the drawbridge against attackers then slamming the door. And I can understand it. Its like inviting someone in, then having them leave a shit sandwich on your counter, without the bread.

    The 'commenter' is the one with the probs.. and as someone else said, what does it matter to her? Why come to someones blog and judge them? And if Christ said not to judge, when who the hell is she to say shaman stuff is whooey? Mostly a ignorant person I would say. She must be pretty pathetic to have to come here and throw stones at swan and family.

    *sighs* I'll miss you blogger sistah...
    hugs from us both,
    Mystress and Paladin

  13. Ordalie9:03 PM

    @Mystress and Paladin: You're absolutely right, I shouldn't have said that, being shocked and sad is no excuse.
    Dear Swan, I am sorry and I do apologize,

  14. No-no-no! Ends fiddlesticks.

    But I like the cartoon, it was worth pulling up the post just for that.


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