I am not able to bring myself to share my current reality in detail. I ran across a couple of poetry excerpts by Gjertrude Schnackenberg that resonate with our present reality.
"When love was driven back upon itself,
When a lapse where my life should have been,
Opened like a breach in the wall........."
"Possessed, but not in order to possess;
Selfsame, self-owned, self-given, self-possessed,
And all in play. But conquered nonetheless."
We three are together again. I was away for a bit. We have huge struggles and our lives are profoundly changed. I hope we will continue and believe we will out of determined love and pragmatic necessity. Perhaps someday we will feel able to tell the story of our last three weeks, but if so, that time is long into the future.
On a more concrete note, next Friday November 19, our t is going to have a total knee replacement surgery and much of our time, energy, and focus will center around her recovery, care, and rehabilitation from then through the first of the year.
I hope all our friends here are well. I have missed writing here and all of your input and support but absolutely cannot even begin to imagine writing about our present experience. Likely our journey regarding t's upcoming surgery will give us an important and dramatic series of experiences we will be able to share here.
Thank you for those who are hanging in with us through this time. Thank you for caring to send us support and for bothering to miss us.
All the best,